where u just eat so much ur stomach will esplodeeee?
yeah… im in a happy place right now :D
so yea. 11/14 kids disliking me or just ignoring me. it kidna sucks. but u get a lot of time to think. and then u think and u think about how u suck. and everything you do is wrong. and u become like every other teenager in america. overdramatic and depressed. you go home to your “loving” grandmother kuz ur moms at work and then she emphasizes how everything u do is wrong and ur a failure. she compares u to all the kids who u dont tlk to and tells you how they are the perfect child. then mom comes home from work. tells you how you use her to buy things and u dont care. as true as that statement is i dont needa hear it on a daily basis. so you retaliate. you tell them how they are wrong. u explain it and prove yourself right. then the push u against a wall and ur head starts bleeding. so ur like u know what. fuck it. and u leave and buy pizza.
yea thats kinda what thinking does to u. it sucks. live life through action not thoughts no1 can hear thoughts but the world sees your actions :)
loveyourselfsono-onehasto asked: yeah damn straight we good now. bitch ass nigga. xP but it's okay cuz i loves you anyway (: also, bring your ID tomorrow so we don't have to spend lunch inside again. kay loveyouuuuuuu<3 peace broski (:
loveyourselfsono-onehasto asked: adam P L E A S E. i'm sorry. i'm really fucking sorry, okay? i am. please. i love you. you know that. and you love me and i know that. and just asdfghjklalksdhagieruacnmalskmflsj UGH please please please talk to me babe. please. i'm fucking dying over here. please. i'm sorry. =/ <3
we good :) <3
so the more mistakes i made the harder it was to keep track. once i started dating girl 2 i just made more and more mistakes. i wasnt really paying much attention to the relationship but thats whatever. she was just a girl who was happy to say she had a boyfriend. anywhooo… one of her better friends was 2 years younger at the time. and liked me. which came out of nowhere. so she will be girl 2.5 just kuz u kno shes not around much in my life. i liked her sister though haha. but thats not too important as of yet. anyway girl 2 comes up to me one day and is like can u please please please pleeeeeaaasssseeeeeeeee just date girl 2.5 for like a week or 2. and my reaction was in shock, awe, disbelief, and most importantly a what the FUCK state of mind. but she was like it would make me really happy. and that word happy clicked in my head along with girl 1. so it was like ok fineeeeeeee. so i did that. and that girl 2.5 was a liar. she told me her birthday was early. so i assumed it passed. and when i dumped her. it was her actual birthday. like god fucking damn it. but anyway. i got shit from the grades below me for that but whatever. most kids new i kinda did that one out of sympathy. then i go back to girl 2. and she is mad at me and wont tell me why. and when she did after 2 weeks of bitching about nothing, it turned out she was mad because i took too long with girl 2.5 so i politely asked her to shut the fuck up and back off. i used to have a kind of bad temper so that was the best result :/. but yea so i did that and everthing blew up. like u can almost see explosions of drama exploding in every kids face in my class. some kids thought it was kinda funny. but they were my best friends. they hated girl 2 like i did for about 8 years. so they thought me telling her to stfu was absolutly hilarious. everyone else, the other 11 kids… not so much. and thats where all the real drama kicked in :)
like i know im jewish and all. and i went to a lil jew school for 10 years. but deading my parents and not going to temple kicks ass. sleep > religion + temple :D
that will be all :)
and this kid asked it to me when we were havn a heart to heart. and he was like, well what does it mean to be a man. so i was like hm. thats an intereting question. well i think its not necessarily being a man but its more being like mature. so what is that threshold of maturity? in my opinion it varies. a lot. for a lot of different people. so like i think it is just a time where they take a step back and see everything for what it is. nothing is as facinating anymore kuz we know the truth behind it. like we know the truth about lies is that they never lead to good. and we know the truth about guns is that they are made to kill. and the truth about cars is that they are mishandled. and so on and so fourth. but then we mature on a mental state where as to we see everything with passion. we care for everything or understand it to a better degree. so when we cross that threshold we listen and talk. we understand and fight for what we believe to be right. we explain ourselves and then act and admit to when we are wrong. we are open to what goes on around us and we are not ignorant to the truth. we just accept it whether we like it or not. we get upset but are stil glad we understand. ignorance may be bliss, but bliss is not happiness. its just like false hope. wake up, not everything is perfect. but when u mature u find perfection in the oddest places. and when u do that u find happiness. so when u become mature. u understand better. learn more. and enable others. and most importantly become happy :)